Day 144: Creative Life

I have found that my creative life revolves more around planning to write, preparing to write, and finding reasons that I just can’t write than actually writing.  The first two steps are necessary…the third one is not.  At least not all of the time.  I think that my hesitation to actually sit down to write needs to be psychoanalyzed.  Is it a fear of failure or a fear of success?  Is it a lack of motivation or do I need to have a deadline imposed by another person with real penalties involved?  Do I just not have what it takes to be a writer…if so, what’s missing?  I can write and people like what I write, so where is the missing piece?  Yes, as I recently proclaimed, I am a world class procrastinator.  So, is that the issue?  It probably is part of it but not the only missing piece.  I wonder if anyone out there has a book about writing and writers that is from the viewpoint of an analyst/therapist/psychologist/psychiatrist?  Something that addresses this kind of situation.  I know I’m not the only creative person that has this issue…I see it in my creativity and writing groups on a regular basis.  Maybe we need to form a group that specifically addresses this…people that have the talent to create but don’t.  I have tried everything from setting timers to getting up earlier to staying up later (the previous 2 are not really viable options because of the sleep disorders I have and the 3 medications I take for them), to committing to another person that I will write for a certain period of time and so many more things.  So, I guess I’ll continue trying to figure out where the problem lies.  And, if I come up with any kind of solution, I will definitely share it with you.    

About Donna Heilman

I am a writer that lives in the Dallas-Ft. Worth Metroplex with my husband, 2 dogs, and 10 cats. I am currently working on my novel, Rapture, as well as writing poetry and some short non-fiction. I am honestly writing this blog to feel more connected with other creative people.
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