I have found that my creative life revolves more around planning to write, preparing to write, and finding reasons that I just can’t write than actually writing. The first two steps are necessary…the third one is not. At least not all of the time. I think that my hesitation to actually sit down to write needs to be psychoanalyzed. Is it a fear of failure or a fear of success? Is it a lack of motivation or do I need to have a deadline imposed by another person with real penalties involved? Do I just not have what it takes to be a writer…if so, what’s missing? I can write and people like what I write, so where is the missing piece? Yes, as I recently proclaimed, I am a world class procrastinator. So, is that the issue? It probably is part of it but not the only missing piece. I wonder if anyone out there has a book about writing and writers that is from the viewpoint of an analyst/therapist/psychologist/psychiatrist? Something that addresses this kind of situation. I know I’m not the only creative person that has this issue…I see it in my creativity and writing groups on a regular basis. Maybe we need to form a group that specifically addresses this…people that have the talent to create but don’t. I have tried everything from setting timers to getting up earlier to staying up later (the previous 2 are not really viable options because of the sleep disorders I have and the 3 medications I take for them), to committing to another person that I will write for a certain period of time and so many more things. So, I guess I’ll continue trying to figure out where the problem lies. And, if I come up with any kind of solution, I will definitely share it with you.
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