The majority of the things that we know about life, we learned the hard way. Some people learn these things early and some learn slowly over time. But we all learn it at some point in our lives. Even though my home life was somewhat chaotic when I was growing up, I was still somewhat sheltered from the world. Church every Sunday, big family gatherings on a regular basis, small town, small neighborhood, etc… We were exposed to some things…all 4 of my uncles on my mom’s side were functional alcoholics, 1 of my aunt’s husbands was very cruel, another’s had a nervous breakdown and had fits of rage, another uncle was killed in an accident right after he returned from Vietnam, and so on and so forth. I guess family craziness was okay but not outside craziness. Even when I was old enough to raise…18…I didn’t. The people that I went out with were all friends from. Having a couple of drinks with dinner was as much hell as we usually raised. Same thing when I went away to college except I was with people that I didn’t go to church with but were still fairly low key. We drank a little more but that was about it. I married for the 1st time when I was just shy of my 24th birthday. And my education began in full shortly thereafter. Suddenly, I was a married adult with adult responsibilities, bill, problems, and a husband that became more irrationally angry and violent with each day that passed. I had a secret to keep…I was a victim of domestic abuse. Every single day I learned a little more. Finally, I left and went out on my own for the very 1st time. There was more learning and I morphed into a very different person because of everything that I had learned the hard way. I wasn’t finished learning either. I’ll never be finished. Hopefully, however, the lessons will become a bit easier but every time I think that I have learned all that I need to know, another lesson comes along…some easy, some more difficult. It never stops so you just have to learn to roll with each new lesson. There is always a reason for each 1. That’s just how life works.
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