Ever have one of those days where from the second that you wake up, every single thing goes wrong? For me, that day is today. I woke up and checked my blood glucose and it was LOW. That is bad for several reasons. First, you feel drained. Second, you need to get it back up without pushing it too high so you drink a small glass of juice, wait 15 minutes and check it again. Still too low…drink more juice or eat a small piece of fruit. You keep that up until you’re back to a normal level. All that while trying to put on makeup, fix your hair, get dressed, pack a lunch, make your coffee, etc…. It slows you down physically and mentally. Third, and the biggest issue on the first day back at work after 5 days off, is that you feel like death warmed over all day long. And the only way to fix it is to go to bed and sleep so I’ll feel this way all day long. So, I finally get myself ready and get my glucose up to where it’s safe for me to drive to work. The drive is quick and easy. I get to work and forget to take my sunglasses off and put on my regular glasses. The problem with that is that I only have my glasses, my favorite pair, about halfway in the pocket on my bag and they fall out just as I reach the door. They fall lens side down so there are multiple deep scratches that line up perfectly with my pupils. They are ruined. I have another pair of glasses here at work that I kind of hate but I can at least see. I finally get into my office and just dump all my stuff into the visitor’s chair. After I take off my coat, I try pulling 1 bag out from under the others and the clip on the over the shoulder strap snaps. Like my glasses, the strap is now useless and that makes the bag somewhat inconvenient to tote around with everything else I carry. And it wasn’t a cheap bag. But, now I’m safe in my office and I haven’t destroyed anything else since I broke the strap. Still trying to get my glucose up to a decent level so I’m eating lunch a little early. Plus, I have an appointment with my cardiovascular surgeon later this afternoon so I need to have my glucose at a steady maintainable level without letting it go too high. If I were a full-time writer, I could deal with all of this so much better. This is just one of the reasons that I have to get off of my ass and WRITE. Write like the wind. I know that the odds are against me and that unless you have a Harry Potter or Twilight in the works, the money isn’t going to be “Stephen King” kind of money but if I don’t do it, I’ll never know, will I? That’s why we can’t give up on this dream that we have. We are unique so our writing is unique. No one else can tell that story. So, even though I’m dragging myself through this day and the day, in general, has sucked, I will go home and write. Even if it’s just 30 minutes, I will write. Even if what I write is terrible, I will write. That is my mantra for the day…I will write. It should be yours as well. Take that leap of faith and write that novel or poem and submit it. The odds may be against us but they were also against Stephen King, J. K. Rowling, and Stephanie Meyer but they still took that leap of faith and just look at them now. It happened to them and it could happen for us…but first, we have to write.
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