Day 24: This Is My Life

My life isn’t much different from anyone else’s.  I’m married to a photographer with his own business that he runs from our home, I work a full-time job that doesn’t feed my soul but is decent and pays the bills, we have 3 dogs and 5 cats, I have a little too much credit card debt that I’m paying down, not nearly enough in savings but working on it, I have some health issues but I’m better off than a lot of people, we have a house with an acre of land in the middle of a nice sized city, and so forth and so on.  Just a normal life with very little to complain about.  I am trying to stop working over-time so that I can have more writing time.  We’re always looking for more writing time, aren’t we?  There never seems to be enough no matter what, though.  I would love to be able to lock myself in my little writing haven that I’ve created and write for days.  But we know just how that would go, don’t we?  We’ll write a little then our mind will wander.  We will Google different things, check our email, Facebook, Instagram, Pinterest, etc….  We’ll go back to our writing…for a little bit…we’ll then wander off again.  It’s our process, I suppose.  We can’t just sit and write for hours usually.  I don’t know why that is though.  I’ve tried to decipher why it is that we can’t just do the 1 thing that we say we want to do more than anything else in the world.  Why can’t we stay on task?  Part of the reason that I can’t stay on task is that I have both ADHD and OCD, so I’m easily distracted and when I get distracted, I tend to stay there because of the OCD.  I’ll think of something that I haven’t thought of in a long time…for example, a book that I haven’t seen in months or even years.  And suddenly that book becomes the most important thing in the world and I have to find it.  Why?  For absolutely no reason other than, I have to find it.  I will search for hours until I do find it and then, I can go back to what I had been doing, the book found and then forgotten again.  Is it part of our process or is it avoidance?  Personally, I think it’s both.  We circle our writing like a hawk circling its prey.  After we’re sure that it’s the prey that we’re seeking, we dive down and attack then write like a mad person.  Until we’re hit by the next stray thought.  I’m not a linear thinker.  Maybe that’s why, as a writer, I’m a pantser.  I cannot do an outline or plot a scene to save my life.  I have tried so hard to do both and haven’t ever been successful.  Honestly, I’d rather be that hawk, circling my story and then diving down into it.  We all have our process and, if it works, keep using it.  If it doesn’t, keep experimenting until you find yours.  There’s no right or wrong…there’s only that which works for you.  Don’t let anyone tell you differently.  Just continue to cultivate your talent.  Emphasis on YOUR.  Don’t forget that we are individuals so we all work differently.  My process might work for you but it most likely won’t.  And vice versa.  Find your own path and stay on it as long as it leads somewhere even if it has a few detours here and there.  Just don’t stop.  That’s the 1 thing that’s guaranteed to not work.  So, chart your course and keep going…you’ll get there.  

“You have to write the book that wants to be written.  And if the book will be too difficult for grown-ups, then you write it for children.” ~ Madeleine L’Engle           

About Donna Heilman

I am a writer that lives in Irving, TX with my husband, 3 dogs, and 5 cats. I am currently working on my novel, Rapture, as well as writing poetry and some short non-fiction. I am honestly writing this blog to feel more connected with other creative people.
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One Response to Day 24: This Is My Life

  1. perfect quote you have “You have to write the book that wants to be written. And if the book will be too difficult for grown-ups, then you write it for children.” ~ Madeleine L’Engle” writing for tomorrows future to help them to not make the same mistakes that todays world is making is ones only hope…

    – beautiful blog Donna –

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