Day 21: Making Changes

The most difficult for me at this moment is making the time to write.  The problem isn’t that there’s no time…it’s that I don’t take advantage of it.  Honestly, after I get home from work, all I want to do is sit down and veg for a little while.  Then there’s dinner.  By the time dinner is finished, it’s at least 7:30, if not later.  Then there are the usual evening rituals that we women perform each night.  So, it’s 8:30, I’m comfortable and my mind is somewhat preoccupied with whatever mind numbing TV show or movie is on the television at the time so the last thing I want to do is get up and go think and write.  I just want to completely decompress from the day.  Basically, I’m not writing because I’m being a bit lazy.  There are a lot of writers with bestsellers that were written after a full day at their day job.  If I ever want to be published, I have to get  up from my seat, go to my little writing haven I’ve created and write!  I’ve been told to get up early and get my writing for the day out of the way before doing anything else.  Well, I’ve tried.  I have 3 sleeping disorders for which I am under a neurologist’s care and they fight me every single morning when it’s time to get up.  I actually take medications to go to sleep, stay asleep and stay awake and they are  not amenable to the whole wake up really early thing.  So, I am going to have do it after work.  Even 30 minutes is better nothing.  We all have excuses that we use to get out of writing…work was brutal today, I didn’t sleep well last night, there are things I need to get done, etc….  So, I am going to shut up and shut out the excuses that fly through my brain at night when I start thinking about abandoning my comfy seat and TV for my office chair and laptop and set a preliminary goal of writing for a minimum of 30 minutes each night.  And I will not allow my ADHD and OCD to distract me with organizing, cleaning or looking for things that I don’t really have a true need for at the moment.  If I can write this blog each day, then I can write for 30 minutes at night so that I can get closer to my publishing goal.  Obviously, discipline and concentration are not my strong suits.  I’ll have to make it a priority so that my dreams have a chance of coming true.  What are your excuses for not writing?  Are they legitimate or are they half truths that you tell yourself?  Do you have this whisper that you’re not even consciously aware of in the back of your mind telling you that you can’t fail if you don’t try?  Well, it’s lying to you.  If we have a dream and we do nothing to make it a reality, we are failing and failing hard!  We deserve to have those dreams come true but it’s not going to happen if we don’t work to make them come true.  30 minutes a night is not that long.  We can all do that.  Try it and see.

The most difficult for me at this moment is making the time to write.  The problem isn’t that there’s no time…it’s that I don’t take advantage of it.  Honestly, after I get home from work, all I want to do is sit down and veg for a little while.  Then there’s dinner.  By the time dinner is finished, it’s at least 7:30, if not later.  Then there are usual evening rituals that we women perform each night.  So, it’s 8:30, I’m comfortable and my mind is somewhat preoccupied with whatever mind numbing TV show or movie that’s on the television at the time so the last thing I want to do is get up and go think and write.  I just want to completely decompress from the day.  Basically, I’m not writing because I’m being a bit lazy.  There are a lot of writers with bestsellers that were written after a full day at their day job.  If I ever want to be published, I have to get  up from my seat, go to my little writing haven I’ve created and write!  I’ve been told to get up early and get my writing for the day out of the way before doing anything else.  Well, I’ve tried.  I have 3 sleeping disorders for which I am under a neurologist’s care and they fight me every single morning when it’s time to get up.  I actually take medications to go to sleep, stay asleep and stay awake and they are  not amenable to the whole wake up really early thing.  So, I am going to have do it after work.  Even 30 minutes is better nothing.  We all have excuses that we use to get out of writing…work was brutal today, I didn’t sleep well last night, there are things I need to get done, etc….  So, I am going to shut up and shut out the excuses that fly through my brain at night when I start thinking about abandoning my comfy seat and TV for my office chair and laptop and set a preliminary goal of writing for a minimum of 30 minutes each night.  And I will not allow my ADHD and OCD to distract me with organizing, cleaning or looking for things that I don’t really have a true need for at the moment.  If I can write this blog each day, then I can write for 30 minutes at night so that I can get closer to my publishing goal.  Obviously, discipline and concentration are not my strong suits.  I’ll have to make it a priority so that my dreams have a chance of coming true.  What are your excuses for not writing?  Are the legitimate or are they half truths that you tell yourself?  Do you have this whisper that you’re not even consciously aware of in the back of your mind telling you that you can’t fail if you don’t try?  Well, it’s lying to you.  If we have a dream and we do nothing to make it a reality, we are failing and failing hard!  We deserve to have those dreams come true but it’s going to happen if we don’t work to make them come true.  30 minutes a night is not that long.  We can all do that.  Try it and see.

About Donna Heilman

I am a writer that lives in Irving, TX with my husband, 3 dogs, and 5 cats. I am currently working on my novel, Rapture, as well as writing poetry and some short non-fiction. I am honestly writing this blog to feel more connected with other creative people.
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2 Responses to Day 21: Making Changes

  1. Excuses are my strength also. I am too tired. I have too much school work still to do. The house needs cleaning. Where are my bill that need to be paid? I should do the exercises my doc says. My stationary bike is gathering dust. My plants are dying because of lack of water. I just need to sit down etc. You are right. 30 minutes a night is not too much to make myself do. Now will I? HMMMM

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