Tired as in weary. Tired as in fed up. Tired as in, “I just want to give up.” We all experience those feelings…more some days than others. Maybe you’ve slaved over a novel and all you’ve received are rejection slips or, worse yet, silence. Maybe you’ve been up for days trying to find the perfect words for the final poem in your book of poetry. Maybe you’re at the point where it all seems like a gigantic waste of time and you’re ready to give up. And, on top of all that, you’re tired. You’re working a full-time job that’s ok but doesn’t feed your soul, have a significant other, maybe some kids (2 or 4 legged variety), extended family (maybe in poor health and in need of your assistance), a home (cooking, cleaning, lawn care, repairs, etc….), a social life, that pesky thing called sleep, and writing…if and when you can find the time. I understand the pressure, the stress, the weariness, the worry, and the longing to have a life that does feed your soul. I live that same life. I understand it all. And you have every right to feel all of those things but what you have to understand and come to terms with is you are the only 1, the only person that can change all of that. Whether you write your book or not, the days will continue to pass, the job will slowly strangle your soul, the kids will grow up…basically, life will go on. You have to ask yourself whether you’re okay with all of that happening with you no closer to your dream than you were when you 1st discovered it. Are you? Does writing feed your heart, soul, and mind? Does it give you hope for a different/better future than you’re contemplating right now? Is it your dream to be published? Does writing make you happy when it’s not frustrating the hell out of you? If you answered yes to those questions, then you need to get off of your ass and start writing. You are a writer. You have that dream. You can see that future. Your future. Visualize it every single day, every time your resolve slips, as you fall asleep each night. Hold on tight to it and never let it go because I can guarantee you that the dream will never let go of you. You manifested it, now set it in motion and make it real.
“The scariest moment is always just before you start.” ~ Stephen King